The majority of my day today has been terrible.

When I woke up I was having a great day, I got to chat with Alexis online, etc. Now that the morning is over I'm feeling worse than I usually do. I was suppose to work tonight, but I just didn't go. They called me and I didn't answer. I didn't talk to anyone about work at all. I need to fucking quit is what I need to do. I'm thinking about not going in tomorrow either, or the next day, never. Not just thinking, but thinking seriously.

I don't know what it is, I just don't want to be anywhere. Earlier in the day, when I just had to get away, I drove out to the desert south of Hurricane and climbed to the top of some remote red rock cliffs. I was nowhere and wish I could have stayed there all night. It was too cold to stay up there, though. So I skied down the side of the cliff and made my way back to my car. Still feeling terrible. Now here I am, at my computer, doing nothing and still hating myself. Fun.

Yeah... this blog is short. I'm too unmotivated to write anything more.

listening to: Sloan - One Chord To Another